We are picking up the RV tomorrow! We are officially going.
We have had a couple of rough weeks (enough with the Dead End phase God!Oh, right it is all your timing). We had some things fall though and others not work out, we began to get discouraged. I was working every spare minute on the trip and things were right were we started in May. We considered not going, but knew we would not turn back. I began to think, "Who are we to go and do this?"
Then while I was at a stop light turned my head to see Charlotte! She was actively manning her magnificent and perfectly spun spider web. I looked at the web of wonder and a powerful thought clicked, "If God creates that spider with such an amazing gift, and he clearly cares more about humans than spiders, than can you imagine the gifts he has given us?" And much like, "Some Pig" in Charlotte's Web, that spider wrote, "Who are you not to?" on her web, or may as well have. Thanks Charlotte!
She was right! Who are we not to? Who are all of you not to?
I declared that week - "Big Faith Week." We followed up with a little bit of emailing and calling (but not out of desperation and fear like the past week). And we prayed together, we acted as if it all was going to work out some how, some way. We caught ourselves when we didn't. We got excited about researching some stops.
And as luck, I mean God, would have it, little miracles began to appear. We booked locations. Had pastors want to meet with us. Found some cool new churches. Had a pastor offer his retreat to us for a weekend while we are in town, and it is rrridiculous! It looks like heaven. Pics to follow when we get there:)
Just really cool stuff that stems from having the faith of a mustard seed, and boast boast, I think with our 'big faith week' we had the faith of a Pumpkin seed!
I said to myself, "Never doubt, it always works out!" It has a jingle to it and is so true. Then I woke up this morning with a pea size red lump on my breast. Back to fear. But already tonight it is 1/4 of the size and it could be related to the crazy bouts of Mastitis I have had in the last 6 mos. I have a Sonogram tomorrow. I already feel at ease, that it is benign and silly:)I will keep you posted.
When I felt the calling in my heart to go and do a trip of this nature, I was only present to the fun parts. It's a good thing, because I may not have decided to go if I knew how much work and preparation goes into it. And I know that, albeit this trip is smaller than we wanted or intended, we are going through the necessary growth we need. I keep reminding myself this is not supposed to all go my way, it is God's trip and he has a plan far greater than anything I could think up. What seems insignificant and small to me, is not in the big picture.
Good night.
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